rants

da boyfriendy

Posted 10/11/23

i love my boyfriend so much omg!!! their birthday is coming up soon and im so excicted for it. they are the greatest boyfriend ever. it is very hard to describe my feelings for them tbh but i am deeply in love with them. god i wish i could just be with them 24/7.

thoughts of being autistic

Posted 08/03/23

this is really hard to write about honestly but im doing it. i have had thoughts of being autistic for a couple years now. there are just been a couple things that have put me off the idea. one of the major things is that i was diagnosised with ADHD instead of autism. i have gone through the autism diagnosis but idk something has never felt right. i dont want to get into specifics but my childhood wasnt the greatest. anyways conculsion: i might be autistic.

the 10 year wait

Posted 07/17/23

i have waited 10 years for a game in the little known series called pikmin. pikmin is a incredibly unique series where you command little plant guys. pikmin 4 comes out july 21st and pikmin 3 originally came out in 2013. i was 8 years old when pikmin 3 came out. now, pikmin fans (like me) werent left 10 years without any pikmin games, just no mainline ones. we got a mobile game and a mid 2d platformer spinoff.


the demo for pikmin 4 came out in mid june and it was packed with content. i know that the full game will be great because every pikmin game thus far has been great. there was so much stuff i didnt discover in the demo that im excited to explore the first area again. aaaaa im so excited!!!

dreams

Posted 06/26/23

dreams are weird aren't they? well last night i had a dream that i wished was real so bad. i had a girlfriend something ive never genuinely had before. she was a butch trans girl with light brown wavy hair, and brown eyes. she was super nice and very in tune with her emotions. she took me for a romantic walk at a park. the worst thing is i dont remember her name. i know she had one but i cannot for the life of me remember it. i know what im about to say sounds delusional but i really miss her. if only that dream was real and she was my girlfriend.


anyways, i also had another weird dream a couple nights ago. this dream was about an online friend. i was communicating to this friend through the dream. i was having an irl conversation with this person which has never happened. although it wasnt a normal conversation as it felt as if we were communicating telepathically. i no longer have a way of contacting this person to my knowledge. both were strange although i dont know which i would say was starnger.